Yus blog - Havoc

Its this guy again...posting another blog! ^-^

Its getting closer for me to return again to germany, this time for longer than just brief two weeks.
Im gonna spend some time with my family and my best friend who havent seen me in almost forever haha

Also my sister is awaiting a baby, not sure if boy or girl for now...still it means im becoming an uncle and so does my brother, it kinda makes me feel old but also not by knowing that my sister could be my mother in the matter of her age...well i didnt mean it in a rude way, she still looks good for her age and shes not that old :P

Im still such a fresh 21, i just gasped to be an actual grown up but still i went through a lot in life and it feels like it was a journey around the world and back...in a way it was!

This is just a minimal snippet, but i wanna give you more insight of how it is in my head, my life...in my shoes ;)
Ive always been an outsider as you would call it, i had difficulties making friends, solitude was nearly the only friend so far. I had a very hard childhood but i dont wanna go into any detail here, a burningmark on my heart shall be the only judge for this.
School became a traumatizing thing for me, i tried to avoid it as much as i could and ran away from everything, i wanted to escape this reality, the easiest things were difficult to me and everything seemed surreal to me...and i have to tell here i didnt took or take any drugs, i first started drinking alcohol since im 18 and im in a good handle of it, also i started smoking first after 18 somewhen and i got into good handle to stop it when i felt like i dont need it anymore.
I had a good friend that i still have, you probably know him as the black Cat or winged stray, i call him To ;)
We went to hell and back, its been to hot down there! We were lonewolfs, outsiders, criminals...but we always had eachother to support. Im grateful to no end to have him as my friend that i can put all my trust into, i wish to everyone in this world to have such a good friend.
Love can come and go and it will give you the highest ups in life but also the biggest downs, but a true friend is like a insurance for life!
For myself i have to say, im often headless once my heart beats higher, im an emotional guy and driven by my temper even though i try to keep a cool mind. Im a dreamdancer and a No-good.
But for all my mistakes ive done, To would always have understanding for me, be the helping Hand. A blue band of loyality is wrapped around our ancles til the end of time.

This shall be a thankyou from all my heart and soul!

Now im here, im stumbling over my own feed, trying to make my way.
Im feeling a deep grief and solitude wont leave me alone.
Im in the city of angels with broken wings, but this fire called passion, desire, its the constant flame that makes my body burn, it wants to be unleashed!
Im a beginner in my skills, some people call me uneducated due to my fleeing from reality, but the vision i follow, the future i can feel, it will be!

My hair might be a bit weird, but i love it to be different!
Make-Up also suits guys, cause i love to be different!
Im a bit crazy, but isnt everybody envious to the people who are different!?

Personally, all i do is normal for me, but people think its different, its not as usual but dont we all want something to escape, to change something?
It needs just a tiny spark to develope a huge flame!

The fire sleeps in each one of you, burn with me!!!

Im thankful to all fo you for your support, to my friends who bring light into my dark thoughts, to every new morning!

Put trust in yourself, impossible is just a theory - Go! :)

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YPX